I will do this.
I’ll let you in on a little secret of mine. I’m a massive hypocrite.
I will be the first person to give you advice, to be your biggest cheerleader, to tell you that you need to go for what you want and to just start. However, I never quite seem to take that advice and apply it to my own life.
For the longest time, I have wanted to create consistent content and start an online business. I haven’t because I’m so scared of every single negative possibility that could happen.
I’ve done it before though, I’ve created consistent YouTube content for over a year in the past. It’s not like the evidence isn’t there that this is something that I can do, but my brain is having none of it.
My therapist has been talking to me a lot recently about a bottom up approach to mindset. Instead of using your brain first, which would be top down, we start in the body. You can use that as a catalyst to affect your thinking. There’s a lot more to it than I can explain at the moment. Essentially, me starting by writing this post is a forward movement in working in this way. Normally, I would overthink my way out of doing it, but I am kind of forcing myself to do it. At the end of the day, I know that this is something that I enjoy and want to pursue.
I'm fed up with living my life looking through the eyes of others successes, dreaming of what could be, and feeling down because of it. It's time to start working towards my own dreams because this is something that I want.
One thing that has stopped me in the past has been other peoples opinions of what I'm doing. Not that they think that it's a bad idea, but that they think I'm all talk and won't commit to anything. I'll admit, I've thought that in the past, and it's hard to not think that now. I don't know what's different yet about now, but I know that I t think that way anymore. I've got to have more belief in my abilities and myself because I know that I can do this.
I will do this.